Frustrated

I am cold
I hurt
I am broken
I am mad
I am miseried
I am on the verge of insanity
I lower my self
I swallowed my pride
I broke my confidence
I offered my heart
I am losing my mind
I am giving up my soul
I am worthless
I am hopeless
I am not me
If I am me
I would never be lost
I would never be numb
I would never give up my heart
My mind
My soul
My freewill
My dream
My hope
My sanity
Never be worthless
Never be hopeless
For a....Girl
Who never knew me
Whom I never met
Who will never like me
Who will never be willing to love me the way i love her
Who can never return my love
Who can never be mine to love
Never be mine to cherish
Never be mine to comfort
Never be mine to spend forever with
Never be mine to hug
Never be mine to kiss
Such are the ironies of love
You can give up everything
You can be anything
You can do anything
For the one you love most
But is she willing to return the favor
Will she love you
Will she give up everything for you
Will she be anything for you
No,she cant be what you want her to be that she don,t want to be
All you can do is to sit in a corner
Ponder
Cry
Write
All of your frustrations and doubts and questions
For life is unfair
Unkind
God is not always there
Your friends are not always
For you
Your life is not always yours
Your fate is not always
Wat you want
And destiny isn't real
Nor happy endings
And ladies and prince charmings
Sometimes you need to cry
Even though its girlish
For someone...
Totally alien
Yet so familiar
So cruel
Yet so sweet
Very ill mannered
Yet so pretty
So demeans me
Yet so encourages me
So makes me look pitiful
Yet makes me feel better
So makes me sorrowful
Yet makes me cheerful
So makes me feel insecure
Yet makes me feel safe
So makes me feel apathetic
Yet broke lethargy in me
So gives me much worries
Yet I'm happy
So pains me
Yet I LOVE HER
So much
And it pains me to see her and do nothing
And it pains me to see her and just stalk away
And it pains me to see her and just sigh
And it pains me to see her and just daydream
And it pains me to see her and just look away
And it pains me to see her and just wish i was with her
Nd it pains me 2 c her and just clench my fist
Nd it greatly pains me to see her and just
Stare
Knowing that she doesn't know how much it pains me love and see her from a distance...